This series is an experiment of scanned artefacts that each has its own memory and meaning. I have gathered these items over the years from things that have been passed down to me, items that I have collected and other objects which I use everyday. Each individual artefact is something that belongs to me, shapes my identity and enriches my heritage.
It is a sensorial experience. It is not only the mere artefact alone and what it represents but the abundance of senses it enlightens. This which embodies a place, space and specific time.
I get asked a lot, what is your mother tongue? My answer often goes to Gujarati. Although I know it is English too. I never really understood that question because my identity is paired between the two. This scanned art quite perfectly portrays my identity and somewhat subconsciously it answers the question inexplicably.
The blue cotton saree સાડી [sadi] has been passed down from my grandmother. It is a reminder of the altitude of my ancestral migration, a saree sewn in the villages of India, worn through her married years in Kampala, Uganda (East Africa) and carried overseas, migrated to United Kingdom to the city of Leicester.
The silver anklet ચાંદી પાયલ [chandi payal] is something I yearned to wear every Navratri (dance festival) yet I had to always wait for my ankles to grow before I could fit into them. The delicate clasps and subtle jingles in every step I take invigorated my deepness in the culture I embrace.
The postal stamp merely a reminder of my sealed fate in a new land of which I embrace these precious artefacts and have built my home. Yet my heritage never leaves despite the walks I take through the valleys and peaks where I pick leaves and flowers, dissecting its delicate veins and wondering where it may have stemmed from.
I know sentimental items often are associated with past and memories but to me these shape who I am. Although I live in England and although I am British born, I know India runs through me and my mother tongue is weaved within this paradox. Often, I feel like an outsider here, possibly too Indian and sometimes I may be too British when I visit India. And so this idea of home still ponders my mind. I once read that home isn’t a place but it’s within you and so if my Indian heritage lives in my heart then I truly know who I am and where I belong. Perhaps I am so accustomed to carry these feelings, these ideas and pieces with me as they help invigorate my soul and enlighten my identity.
I could not begin to entirely dissect this image since each one part is hinged on another, and the piece is best understood as all parts that connect to a whole, and not otherwise. Each fold, each stitch, every leaf, letter and curve helps me to recognise who I am and commemorates my Indian heritage.
This series is a work in development which I hope to exhibit through projections in next year’s South Asian Heritage Month. Below is a poem I wrote that anchors the piece.
આ અગરબત્તી
મને શક્તિ આપે છે
મારા ઘરમાં
મારી ઓળખ
હું આ લાકડીઓ લઈ જઈશ
કાયમ
કૃપા કરીને દૂર ન લો
these incense sticks
invigorate
my home
my identity
I will carry these sticks
forever
please don’t take them away